Nidhi's Equanimous World

Far away somewhere in a parallel universe, There might be a reality where he is solely mine to immerse, If not here then at least there, I might be happy with the love we share. The words he spoke, the jokes he made Will still make me laugh for another decade, But if only i could also hear, what i wanted him to say, I could replay it in my head, all night and day. I know he is out there, moving on in life for real, Does he also think of me, like i think of him as ideal ? I am sure he does, whether he says it or not, I might have had an impact on him and stirred a thought, If i could bend the rules of physics and go back in time, I wouldn't have tried to know him or let our paths align, Or better yet, i would travel to another universe once more, Where we would be together and free forevermore.

I let myself dream, for it is simple and true, Without it, i'd fade like a morning dew; So i close my eyes to escape the cries, Hoping for a realm which no heart denies; For my breathe alone cannot prove that im alive, But in my dreams, my heart can float and dive, Into the deepest oceans and in the endless skies, For in my reverie, my spirit flies. I’ve grown weary of the world, its masks and disguise, Tired of the falsehoods and well-crafted lies; I walk through the shadows where trust is thin, Caught in a web where deceit begins; Promises break like glass in the night, Leaving me lost, far from the light; So, in my dreams, I find refuge, a place to hide, For I fear the love that waits outside. - NDS✨

A constant dilemma, a bewildered mind In the pursuit of passion, she has gone blind; A twisted love, a toxic space Those poisonous words, that venomous embrace; Still, she tries to get through the day The next would be better each day she pray. A second chance, a fallacious choice Aggressive conduct fosters a trembling voice; An obnoxious persona, a temper so vile Yet, she forces a laugh and fake a smile. Nowhere to go, no one to talk She doesn’t have a destination, just an endless walk Everything she does, she knows it’s not wise Still, after every sunrise, she forgets all his lies. -NDS

  Carrying my broken heart I kept on going by My intrepidity was ripped apart When I cried out my eye   My dignity stumbled the minute, I decided to follow someone The leader in me took that bullet And told me that she’s done   I had the reminiscence of the distant memories from before, When in my defense I’ll never ever give up, I swore   I cannot identify the woman in the mirror And what she has become Her thoughts are not any clearer And her judgement is numb   She has forgotten that “it doesn’t do, to dwell on dreams and forget to live” Cause in her reverie, she isn’t feeling blue, She can easily forget and forgive   Until when do I need to feel this fragile? Till when will my heart bleed Before it can be agile?   Do I really need to chastise myself for it all? Do I need to compromise and take the fall?   Can’t I revitalize myself and be merry once more? Like a phoenix b...

Such beautiful eyes And such a pretty face To get to you, I’ll even tell lies And say your walk is full of grace   Oh I love the flattery With you my feelings will attach And I’ll become all chattery Afterall, I think we’re a match   I’ll make big promises Might not keep them later I’ll even fake having my catharsis Say im a lover, not a hater   I’ll believe every word you say And follow you with my eyes closed I’ll keep ignoring your cunning way Be numb to your vileness as if I'm dozed   Once I am well pleased My next goal, as I understand Is to move on and leave you deceived Beside my next option, nowhere you stand   I’ll be left heartbroken I’ll find myself to take the blame Somethings will remain unsaid and unspoken Now I know we were never the same. -NDS☯️

When they cheat, It festers a wound so deep That you never wanna repeat Loving someone else or take another leap. When they shout, It strikes the heart and mind, So much that you have a doubt That noone else can ever be kind. When they leave, It poisons the soul to the core, That you never wanna believe Another person anymore. When they break, They break you from the inside out, Despite, you get up for your sake, Another step you take, cause you can live without, All of them who made you a mess, All who treated you like a fool, The only mistake you did was to be selfless, But now, in your life, only you will rule. - Ruling her own life, NDS👑💗

Few days ago, I wrote "Don't abandon your brain in the pursuit of your heart's desire". And yes, it is wise, VERY WISE! But does the brain work when the heart's on move..? ENIGMATIC is the word I can think of as the answer. And by all means, it's an enigma to figure out what's fair and what's fallacious, because nothing sounds illogical when the heart has decided to find logic in everything. Furthermore, it can be one of the most difficult conundrums to involve the brain into it. So do we take no notice of the brain and blindly follow the heart? Is the inclusion of the brain a must? Doesn't the heart lives on by getting wounded? We can find millions of reasons to GO WITH THE FLOW. But it's tough to find the one reason to stay on the ground. As I see it, it's NEVER TO FORGET that the higher someone flies blindly, the more prone they are to get injured. - NDS😇

"Imperfection is beauty!" Great lines said by MARYLIN MONROE. And yes many people acknowledge what she said, but to what extent ? Expectations drive people! From "expecting from others" to "being the one others expect from", life goes on. But isn't that true that these expectations are the grounds of disappointments ? People expect you to be the perfect version in every wing. "Imperfection is beauty", "Imperfection makes us worthy", "Imperfection isn't vulnerability" - these all fit for people who are already successful and are a big deal in life. This doesn't apply to folks and commonage. Because from the core of people's life i.e. their home, they're expected to be flawless....LITERALLY FLAWLESS. You make a mistake - you're unworthy. You have to be just perfect in all aspects of your life. One might wonder, Is it even a humanly beleif ? Well, i would say it is very much robotic. Because robots are sup...

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my childhood, when life was simpler and happier. And when I give it a thought, I realised what made it that way..was my tendency to be in the moment and see things as they were(without complicating). And now as I'm growing older, each day I have more expectations, ambitions, responsibilities..and I prefer to see what I want to see and not the truth. It messes with my brain, makes me feel like I'm in a dilemma. So I'm having a hard time with accepting the decisions I've already made and with making the new ones. I believed that I was sure about what I want but I am not anymore. And right now as I'm mulling over this, I'm realising that maybe all this time I've been lying to myself. Maybe deep down I know what I want, but having difficulty envisaging it. And why not.....,because sometimes we keep lying to ourselves just because we're too afraid to discover the truth . And it is the hardest thing. So I guess I need ...

Hopefully at some point of time in life, we all have thought about meeting the perfect prince charming who would dazzle us by his charming smile, mesmerize us with his sparkling eyes, with whom there would be no worries and just living happily ever after....🌹 But don't they say "Fairy tales are not real." Well I disagree! We just need to look at it from the right angle. Why depending on somebody else to bring you happiness ever after? Why not be your own prince charming and write your own fairy tale? Because trust me, once you begin giving you all the happiness you deserve, everyday will seem like a FAIRY TALE!💫 GO, BE YOUR OWN PRINCE CHARMING ON A WHITE HORSE! With love, NDS❤️

The future that we plan and think so much of, When it actually comes, we start dwelling on the past. What we craved for so long, We get it and again....we dwell on the past. Worked hard for something and achieved it, Happy for few moments and here we're again....dwelling on the past. What could be the explanation....Human behaviour? Wanting to go back? Possible the impossible? Well, what if I say, it's not that complicated! JUST BE IN THE MOMENT AND LIVE IT! Because in life's constant race, we miss the small things for the sake of capturing the bigger ones. So let's start today and DO NOT LET ANY MOMENT SLIP BY! Xoxo

There are days in our life when we feel like giving-up, stop trying and loosing hope.  But, instead we should hold onto ourselves and remember why we started in the first place. Success doesn't come easily to everyone.  The harder we work and wait for it, the longer it stays! So instead of giving up during hard times, I say to myself  "I am not afraid to be covered in wounds, because I know, once I pull through all these scars, all that awaits me - is SUCCESS."

Here's one of my personal experiences of self-realization : I'd like to talk about the film CATWOMAN (2004) starring Halle Berry. Some of you might not have watched it, but you'll eventually understand my thoughts as you proceed. I saw this movie for the first time in 2012 when I was 15 years old. Although I liked it but I wasn't satisfied with the ending. Because the protagonist gives up the opportunity to unite with the hero, and chooses freedom. In my opinion then as a teenager, I hoped to watch the woman cherish the love of her man and the couple getting hitched. So, it wasn't a happy ending for me. The reminiscence of this film was long covered by many other memories until yesterday, when I watched the same film again after 9 years. And I observed the protagonist choosing independence, solitude and freedom over inter-dependence, couple life and love.  But then I thought to myself, she did choose love......... SELF-LOVE.💚 ♡  Love, which made her embrace her ...

When someone's flaw is revealed in front of you; before delivering another critical comment, think, Do you also possess the same flaw? - If YES, then improve yourself first. - If NO, then help others to improve. Criticizing others is the easiest path,  but that never adds value to yourself or reduce the value of others. So, choose the higher path of ACCEPTANCE AND HELP.😌 - NDS

Just because you are a WOMAN  (married or unmarried)  doesn't mean you lack the ability to do things on your own. After all, independency in career and finance is the key to have an independent personality. And it can make all your wishes come true! So, when push comes to shove, Always rely on yourself. No matter how hard the circumstances are, Its you and only you who can save yourself.