Nidhi's Equanimous World

I let myself dream, for it is simple and true, Without it, i'd fade like a morning dew; So i close my eyes to escape the cries, Hoping for a realm which no heart denies; For my breathe alone cannot prove that im alive, But in my dreams, my heart can float and dive, Into the deepest oceans and in the endless skies, For in my reverie, my spirit flies. I’ve grown weary of the world, its masks and disguise, Tired of the falsehoods and well-crafted lies; I walk through the shadows where trust is thin, Caught in a web where deceit begins; Promises break like glass in the night, Leaving me lost, far from the light; So, in my dreams, I find refuge, a place to hide, For I fear the love that waits outside. - NDS✨

A constant dilemma, a bewildered mind In the pursuit of passion, she has gone blind; A twisted love, a toxic space Those poisonous words, that venomous embrace; Still, she tries to get through the day The next would be better each day she pray. A second chance, a fallacious choice Aggressive conduct fosters a trembling voice; An obnoxious persona, a temper so vile Yet, she forces a laugh and fake a smile. Nowhere to go, no one to talk She doesn’t have a destination, just an endless walk Everything she does, she knows it’s not wise Still, after every sunrise, she forgets all his lies. -NDS

  Carrying my broken heart I kept on going by My intrepidity was ripped apart When I cried out my eye   My dignity stumbled the minute, I decided to follow someone The leader in me took that bullet And told me that she’s done   I had the reminiscence of the distant memories from before, When in my defense I’ll never ever give up, I swore   I cannot identify the woman in the mirror And what she has become Her thoughts are not any clearer And her judgement is numb   She has forgotten that “it doesn’t do, to dwell on dreams and forget to live” Cause in her reverie, she isn’t feeling blue, She can easily forget and forgive   Until when do I need to feel this fragile? Till when will my heart bleed Before it can be agile?   Do I really need to chastise myself for it all? Do I need to compromise and take the fall?   Can’t I revitalize myself and be merry once more? Like a phoenix b...

Such beautiful eyes And such a pretty face To get to you, I’ll even tell lies And say your walk is full of grace   Oh I love the flattery With you my feelings will attach And I’ll become all chattery Afterall, I think we’re a match   I’ll make big promises Might not keep them later I’ll even fake having my catharsis Say im a lover, not a hater   I’ll believe every word you say And follow you with my eyes closed I’ll keep ignoring your cunning way Be numb to your vileness as if I'm dozed   Once I am well pleased My next goal, as I understand Is to move on and leave you deceived Beside my next option, nowhere you stand   I’ll be left heartbroken I’ll find myself to take the blame Somethings will remain unsaid and unspoken Now I know we were never the same. -NDS☯️

When they cheat, It festers a wound so deep That you never wanna repeat Loving someone else or take another leap. When they shout, It strikes the heart and mind, So much that you have a doubt That noone else can ever be kind. When they leave, It poisons the soul to the core, That you never wanna believe Another person anymore. When they break, They break you from the inside out, Despite, you get up for your sake, Another step you take, cause you can live without, All of them who made you a mess, All who treated you like a fool, The only mistake you did was to be selfless, But now, in your life, only you will rule. - Ruling her own life, NDS👑💗

Few days ago, I wrote "Don't abandon your brain in the pursuit of your heart's desire". And yes, it is wise, VERY WISE! But does the brain work when the heart's on move..? ENIGMATIC is the word I can think of as the answer. And by all means, it's an enigma to figure out what's fair and what's fallacious, because nothing sounds illogical when the heart has decided to find logic in everything. Furthermore, it can be one of the most difficult conundrums to involve the brain into it. So do we take no notice of the brain and blindly follow the heart? Is the inclusion of the brain a must? Doesn't the heart lives on by getting wounded? We can find millions of reasons to GO WITH THE FLOW. But it's tough to find the one reason to stay on the ground. As I see it, it's NEVER TO FORGET that the higher someone flies blindly, the more prone they are to get injured. - NDS😇